Sun is not rising ..

Sky is still dark, intricate. No wind of hope to let abate the clouds. Trees are still, birds are not chirping.

Where I have came to. I don't know. But things are gloomy.

It's been a long time, have been waiting for a sunshine. I'm seeing other half of the world taking sun bath. Still it tells me other half is with me .. waiting for sun rise and hoping for moon to give some light. But it's not giving it. The light is pale. May be these are no moon days .. but how many? There should be only a day in fortnight. But for me days are passing without light .. light of hope .. light of energy ..

I am fighting hard to come out .. to come over this situation .. but not a single sight of breeze which I can use to rejuvenate, to stand stern, to fly to sunshine. I don't know how I came to this place, something discerned me to this place, this condition. 

I look at mirror, I am not able to see a smile. May be due to tearful eyes or may be because I don't want to. Things are to abide with me .. 

 

Waiting for the day.. I will see myself in mirror in pride, with honor. Waiting for the day when I pass my day with joy, with smile and waiting for that day when I won't be mulling over this condition ..

What you would do ..

Have you ever faced a situation like this ...
There is an important match coming up on TV. You have done everything possible to come early from office to watch it. You come home, sit in front of TV and your mom/wife/father asks to change a channel to watch other program. What you would do?
You can fight over it and deny to change the channel. But what if other person gets upset. Would you be able to sit and watch with complete interest having in mind that your stubborn behavior making other people upset?

I don't know about many other people, but I can not. I will abdicate, change the channel and tell the other person to watch program. But in this case as well the thing will always be in my mind that I couldn't watch the match. Both the ways I am down!

This is very generic and this may happen with anybody. And to be honest this is a very simple case, not that complicated as I am telling here. But there are so many things similar to this happen in our lives. Speaking out makes other person unhappy and you can't see person unhappy.
There are two different conditions of this. If that other person is not too close to us then we tend to ignore his unhappiness and it's easy to ignore as we will not face him everyday so eventually as time passes we tend to forget about it to move on but when the person is too close to you, then it's very difficult to ignore his/her unhappiness. As we have to face him/her everyday.

It's very easy to come to solution in above scene by discussing and convincing other person that match is important to me and s/he can watch program during the breaks.
But in real life when decisions can't be taken by discussing the things, what you would do?
It's always difficult to manage people and their emotions.

Another scene:
Guy falls in love with a girl, girl refuses to be with him. He becomes sad and unless girl sees him being sad, things are little easy.
As day passes his sadness abates. And it becomes easy to move on for the guy and girl.
But what if girl meets him everyday.. she can see him going downcast. And this is unpropitious condition for both of them as it's difficult for him to forget about his feelings for girl.
There would be a guilt feeling in her mind for his sadness..
What you would do in such case?

Girl can't say 'yes' to that guy just to avoid this situation. And from her perspective as well it's very difficult to come to a solution. So if you ask me, I would suggest to be away for few days as far as possible. It's definitely not an easy thing to do but necessary to move on.We can't take these things out of mind but we can keep it away.

I have also seen few friends are still to gather, they meet everyday (and they seem to be happy) after going through this phase. I can't imagine how they could have managed thoughts from their mind.

There are so many examples like this in our day to day life. Some people handle it wisely, few people fight, few cry ..
There are people who gone through all this, probably they are strong enough to forget and forgive the sadness of abdication.
And according to me a little positiveness can help to handle these things in everyday life.

So be positive and believe in your splendor .. 

Pollu-tics !!

Yesterday, I got chance to see a movie-'Shanghai ..'. 

Fortunately I didn't know anything about the movie before I entered the movie hall as it helped to get surprise of the movie's screenplay, I wouldn't have got otherwise. As soon as I came out of the hall, I started thinking about the politics shown in the movie. Not because I have extreme interest in politics but I started seeing real life examples how the things happen in India. Especially with politics .. 

Anybody against the system/government/ruling party is either wrong or bad. This is a thumb rule now.  I remember, Manish Tiwari's allegations that Anna Hazare was corrupt from "head to toe". Sharad Pawar's (NCP's) statement that Anna Hazare is like 'Nathuram Godase'. Income tax department slapping fine on Arvind Kejriwal to pay 9 lakh rupees. News started flowing out how Kiran Bedi is fraud And now service tax department has slapped notice of 4.94 crore rupees on Baba Ramdv's trust. 

Every time I see/read such news I get the feeling which I got while seeing movie on the screen. Every person who raised his voice to shout against the ruling party gets killed!! 

In real life it's the same .. isn't it? 

Anna Hazare and his team started anti corruption movement. They are holding huge support from public for this movement. Right or wrong I don't know .. but what I know is as soon as they started getting support, these people (Team Anna) got notices from various departments of Government of India. These departments are usually managed by all brilliant people who manage to score good marks in extremely difficult UPSC and similar state exams. All these people are highly skilled, brilliant. But the problem is they are usually mentored/dictated by the corrupt politicians. (Benefit of which is taken at the end of this movie).

Arvind Kejriwal resigned from his post in Feb-2006, and to get his no-dues certificate he needed to pay 9.26 laks rupees for study leave taken in year 2000. And coincidentally I-T department remembered this in 2011 only when he joined with Anna Hazare for Anti-corruption movement. Same is the case with Kiran Bedi and Baba Ramdev, all these news/penalties are just to trouble them to not to say a single word against government!!

Shame on this pollution in politics ..

 

There are many things I can relate with the Movie. And it's but obvious as movies are inspired from real life happenings. Coming back to movie .. it's awesome. Amazing direction!! Great play by all actors, but I got connected more to movie due to it's direction.

 And I just hope somebody like 'Krishnan' of real life would come forward to show real place of these politicians ...

  

P.S.: All the news and information mentioned above are taken from below news articles.

http://articles.economictimes.indiatimes.com/2012-06-04/news/32031809_1_baba-ramdev-s-trust-yoga-camps-bharat-swabhiman-trust

http://indiatoday.intoday.in/story/i-t-slaps-notice-on-arvind-kejriwal-asks-to-pay-dues-of-rs-9-lakh/1/149759.html

http://www.financialexpress.com/news/cong-selfgoal-how-manish-tewari-didnt-do-his-homework-on-anna/833559/

A new start !!

A new gmail account, a new blog on one of the special days of my life. 

 Yes, on this occasion of my birthday I created this new account just for blogs. My earlier account had few fiction blogs which  I don't want to mess up with the posts I would be posting here. Yesterday I read one tweet "The secret to a rich life is to have more beginnings than endings" and decided to start afresh ... 

A Nostalgic Morning: 

Today morning I got calls from my relatives, my friends with warmth birthday wishes. And since then I was wondering how one complete year passed to last year's birthday celebration. 

I was in my bedroom watching episode of Prison Break on my laptop after finishing a wonderful masala rice prepared by me for dinner. I knew all my friends would come to my house so they can eat a yummy cake cut by me. So I checked my watch, it was 11:10 PM of 31st May. So I thought they would come by 11:45 PM to observe 12:00 AM muhurat. My roommates were behaving as if they don't know about by my birthday, they were ignorant and so was I. 

After exact 10 mins, not sure what happened I forgot about my birthday. May be due to the episode I was watching I was engrossed in watching it. And suddenly I heard sound of vuvuzela near my ear. All friends who were there in London were at my house. Jenny brought bought cake from my favorite cake shop patisserie-valerie. Ash brought it to home from there. Friends gifted me suit cum blazer. Jenny gave me Sony Digital Photo frame with amazing photos loaded into it. Ash/Bhuvana/Priya gave me amazon voucher which I used to buy my most desired XBOX. What a day night it was!! 

Still I remember that prison break episode I was watching. And I would remember it for a life time .. because of that episode I got 'surprise' on my birthday. Because of that episode I didn't realize when all friends came into our house (108). 

Exact one year passed to this, still I feel as if it happened few days back .. 

Thanks to Jenny for arranging such a wonderful cake and wonderful gift, thanks Ash to collect it on time .. (this is a long story) .. Thanks all rommies to take time to go to Oxford street and go to H&M to buy blazer (you people didn't know I was following you :P)  Thanks for all friends who came on time and making a wonderful birthday.. 

This time as well I cut the cake .. again thanks to Jenny  for arranging such a wonderful chocolate delight cake..

I came back to 2012 as soon as my phone vibrated. Another call to wish me! 

Really so many people around you .. and it feels so nice to see how wishing to a person matters to them .. 
And believe me to remember a date and arrange things is most difficult task. It's not just about wishing or celebrating any special day but it's about a feeling to do it on time. 


So on this special day I have decided to note down, set reminder of birthdays/anniversaries  so I won't forget it and I would request people reading this to do the same. One call .. one wish can make a day special .. this is what happened to me .. 


Thanks again for all wishes .. it made my day !!